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The Art Of Weakness: A Short Tour Of Davs Art Exhibit


Sarah Davenport AKA Davs
The Art Of Weakness: Surviving Mental Illness Through Art


Artist Statement:

I am so weak. Everything affects me, everything. I have never forgotten the time I salted a slug, then ran to get water when I realized what I had just done. I cried when I saw my son catch a fish, because I could see it dying.

People often tell me how strong I am, because of the things I’ve gone through. But it’s not strength. My weakness keeps me going.

My inability to cope with all the world fuels a desperate need to express my weakness. I do it through art, music, writing, and attempted comedy. I need to be understood, I need connectivity, I need to be an open book.

My weakness drives me. My weakness ruins furniture and purposefully hacksaws self cut bangs. My weakness bleeds oil paint, pushing colors around until I lose myself in a place where weakness can shine. I feel time suspend itself and dive into a photograph moving angles and distorting images, manipulating them until I can visually see my weakness reflect through the altered reality of a fraying thread.

I need people to know I’m weak and that it’s ok. Humanity is evolved, this isn’t the wild animal kingdom. There is a place in this world for people like me. My weakness forces me to be a voice (however so small) that speaks for others who can not reveal their weakness in a society run by wolves. I need justice by way of acceptance.

I strive for acceptance by attempting to prove that weakness can be beautiful, and strange, and scary, but most of all, human.

My art isn’t about image, it’s about emotion. Feelings unexpressed, or feared, dreamed of, wished for, reveled in. My weakness allows me to spill myself, like a thousand slivers of shattered glass, jagged and painful, yet shimmering and translucent like fairy dust. I want to be who I am, I want to be imperfect, and awkward, and weak enough to cry over spilled milk. And I think a lot of people do too.

~Sarah Davenport 2014

Below is a little virtual tour of my art exhibit. The writings between the photographs are excerpts of thoughts on mental illness and why I paint.

Thank you to the LCSC Center for Arts and History for featuring my work, special thanks to Debi Gallion Fitzgerald, >>>Kelsey Grafton for curating a beautiful show, Amanda Gill, and >>>Sarah Reaves for working for no pay on the interactive display to enhance the experience.

Check out my PLEA for people to attend the opening HERE

View a glimpse of the interactive display HERE

Watch Depression On Sale HERE

Watch my flippant intellectual copyright thievery. Introducing Sarah Davenport playing two lead roles in Jonathan Safron Foer’s: Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close  HERE

Watch my oldest son dance at the show = because he’s awesome HERE

Everyone has been absolutely wonderful. THANK YOU.

Shout out to Stacy Streeter who handmade all the frames for the canvas panel paintings:

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20140813-145807.jpgI have no method for perfection or success. I don’t have a picture in my mind of what I’m about to create. I move the brush with my mood. I push color until it forms it’s own identity.


A blank canvas gives me the fear. It’s all the expectations, and pressure, and worries in life on a textured white surface. It’s mental purgatory. But derision becomes equanimity when I let myself go.


When I make art I fall into a fugue. Physical forgotten. Time suspends and becomes a blank slate for me to scribble all over


I could just be smearing colors into grey, that’s what’s so I enticing. I can do anything I want, there are no mistakes. I let go, fall in, explore. And then come back home.


My art isn’t about image it’s about how it makes you feel. That’s all. The image is just a portal.


I don’t name my paintings, because I like possibilities. I want the viewer to give it their own name, see and feel it in their own way. I’m releasing the moment in which it was created and giving it to you. It’s yours now.

20140813-145828.jpg“How are you?” “I’m fine.” “How are you?” “I’m fine.”


If I told someone “I had a headache” they  would ask if I needed ibuprofen.

If I told someone “I’m depressed.” They would say sorry, and avoid me until I’m in better spirits.


Would someone get a headache because I told them I have a headache? No.

Than why does my depression damper the mood? I understand people being empathetic. But truly, no one  can catch my despair like a contagion.




We’re taught, emotions that differ from contentment are meant to be private… As if they’re a sort of dirty laundry. Why is it awkward to be honest? What’s wrong with reality that we can’t say how we really feel?

20140813-145903.jpgThe more I openly, honestly, and freely express myself, the more control I have over this wild mysterious thing inside me.

20140813-145923.jpgGroundhog Day

My bipolar life in 7 stages:
1. Can’t find shoes
2. Frantically searches
3. Hysterics
4. Goes barefoot
5. Steps in glass
6.Finds shoes in most obvious place
7. Repeat *1-6x a day

20140813-145943.jpgWhen I’m depressed, panicked, anxious, manic, or experiencing altered realities I need to to talk about it. Allowing it to consume me, that’s when I go crazy. That’s when I really lose touch with reality. When I am floundering, there is no out of bounds in my mind. I will create looping scenarios, wild and often traumatic, that play continuity to the point of inability to function.


Please be aware that people with mental illness are not always experiencing symptoms of their illness. I am not constantly in emotional chaos. Most often I am very rational and logical. But keeping myself even like so, is a walk on a never ending tightrope made of hills and valleys. If I miss one dose of medication, if something unusual happens, if something triggers me… I walk the tightrope down the hill, and sometimes get stuck there for days. But there can be weeks where I’ve climbed the tightrope up the hill and am even again.

Listen though; no matter how deep and far into a valley I may go, I’m still here, I’m still valid, I’m still worthy of respect.


Verbalizing emotions enables logic to enter the paradigm. In a society that welcomes honesty, we could speak candidly about our real emotions, and in return feel less isolated, we shouldn’t have our realities swept under the rug because they don’t fit into a Fabergé egg.


I can’t count how many times I’ve heard someone say “he/she’s bipolar” and watched the affect of that statement turn the person in which they are referring to into a silent agreement that it is perfectly understandable to discredit and or disregard them as a human being.


I wasn’t able to talk about being bipolar. To admit that sometimes I can’t barely brush my own hair, wish to go to sleep and never wake, blackout meltdowns, racing thoughts, grandiose daydreams, and ideas, until I got help.

I don’t think, if I were out in a traditional workforce that I would feel free to reveal anything at all.

20140813-150016.jpgThere are millions of us, who really do need psychiatric medication to function on a daily basis. One important step to fighting the stigma of mental illness is also to fight the stigma of taking medication for that illness.


Would you ask someone with diabetes to stop taking insulin? Than why are psych meds a joke? Why do we laugh about ‘happy’ or ‘crazy’ pills? I’ve never heard jokes about insulin. Why would one question a clinically depressed person about taking an antidepressant, or a severe bipolar, or schizophrenic why they take anti-psychotics? Yes eat raw, juice, cleanse, positive thinking, those are all nice, but truly for many of us they are not enough.

I’m so tired of people believing that I’ve fallen for the conspiratorial Big Pharma scam and “given into” taking prescription drugs. Yes, I’m aware Big Pharma is corrupt. No, I don’t like it. But I have to do what is necessary to keep myself safe > from myself.

Have you lived my life, and watched me day by day? Are you the mother who watched her ten year old kick in a car window shield, with stop motion memory of kicking it in? Her eleven year old try to kill herself. Her twelve year old dress like Lolita hitchhiking around town with strange men? The numbers go higher, friends.

And that was tame.


Is it that prescription meds are a crutch, are we over medicated, am I mentally lazy? Or possibly… just maybe, is it that we don’t want to face the fact that the brain can have a sort of arthritis, or Crohn’s, or cancer just like one’s physical body. Yes positive thinking, exercise, eating whole foods are all helpful but my brain has an illness, there is no cure. And I am tired of people thinking I’m a fool for not gambling with my glimpse of stability.

I’m pro-homeopathy, but I simply can not afford to play around with my sanity. Big Pharma doesn’t care about me. But my doctor does, and I trust him, that he wouldn’t prescribe me something that to his educated mind would hurt me. Some people can, indulge in natural herbs and such, and I’m happy if something works for them. I wholly accept what works for others. Can others finally accept what works for me?


I feel, by saying I’m depressed; I’m downplaying the realities of how I actually feel. When one is depressed don’t assume that they’re “just” depressed. When I’m depressed, I’m not just sad, and sulky. I’m drowning, I’m suffocating, I’m torturing myself. A ghost whispers reasons for why everyone would be better off without me, haunting my thoughts, overshadowing rationality.20140813-150127.jpgWhy is therapy useful? Because it provides professional guidance. Why should everyday people listen to a friend gush about feeling hopeless? Because to be genuine is to accept all facets of our being. It enriches relationships, garners honesty, trust, and when it comes down to it, it punches holes into the wall that may be crushing your friend.

20140813-150144.jpgIn my personal experience 90% of people who deny the validity of mental illness are mentally ill, that’s not meant to be an insult. The other 10% are either lucky enough to have never knowingly crossed path’s with it… or use disbelief as a coping skill, because they don’t want to face that sometimes all the positive thinking/prayer/mind over matter/self discipline can’t even out the chemicals in our brain.


Please don’t write us off with a simple declaration “crazy”. We go deeper than the flip of a wrist. We’re fighting hidden battles. If your significant other had the flu would you make them soup? Bring them Kleenex? We have the flu, but it’s in our brain. And nobody ever brings us soup. We’re people who are trying to navigate society with chemical imbalances that cause anything from heightened emotions, to hallucinations. We’re not crazy.

20140813-150247.jpgHow stigmatized is mental illness in 2014? I’m considered brave for talking honestly and openly about something that one in four, about 57.7 million Americans live everyday. Just think about that.


I appreciate kind words and understand, when someone tells me I’m brave they’re showing support. There’s no offensive in using that word.

But the truth is, I’m not brave at all. I’m desperate, for me, for others, sick of being silenced, and frantic for change. I’m not brave, I’m weak, I’m in the eleventh-hour. Managing mental illness is still on the back burner of social priorities. People aren’t getting the help they need and that’s at the front of the line for a myriad of societal downfalls. We need education, resources, ongoing open dialog,  compassion, and understanding.


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Undescovered Royalty


I don’t think many people can fathom what it’s like for someone on the spectrum to juggle what a neorotypical (a person with a typical brain) does everyday without thinking.

I broke the top of my blender last night, it’s glass and shattered on the floor around me. I literally stood there with glass in my leg bleeding trying to call my ex-fiancé for help, I’m not on the spectrum, but I get it.

It feels like anyone would automatically know the steps to cleaning up broken glass. And I used to, but something changed in me during my four year bout of severe panic and agoraphobia. Now I understand exactly how it feels to see the shattered glass, and be so overwhelmed; that the glass looks and feels more like a volcano erupted in my kitchen, and how does someone begin to clean up hot lava? And that’s just me, someone who doesn’t even deal with the myriad of sensory issues, that often accompany autism. Like my friend Nik Sebastian lives with everyday. And it’s not funny or a joke, it’s paralyzing, it’s hard, it’s emotional torture, physically draining, sometimes painful, and in his own words “soul sucking” to feel incapable of doing what everyone seems to do without even thinking.


Nik and I have become close friends through heart to heart talks via the internet. With each conversation, I fall in a well of love for him, and feel desperate for the plight and struggle he endures everyday… that seemingly, only fellow members of the autism community can understand.


If you look at his work, fair warning: you will fall in love too. There is something different. And I’ve been browsing and studying different art for four years, ever since I started selling my own. And this is the first I’ve seen that has a flare of what I can only describe as royal. I don’t know how else to describe it.


My friend Nik, he’s pure hearted, and he’s in a desperate situation, we both are. Despite his depression, and feelings of hopelessness he still manages to support me emotionally. He’s been consistently loyal, and honest, and empathetic towards me, even though he can barely juggle his own emotional needs.

Think of my broken glass scenario, and apply it to everything from a phone call, to trying to manage a job, pay bills, buy food, and juggle all of these things; when the only thing to him, that doesn’t feel like cleaning up hot lava is contributing beauty to the world through images of his soul, brought to life by his raw, untethered talent


There is a reason for this my friends, it’s because Nik is a true artist. People don’t feel absolute bliss from painting who aren’t meant to focus on that. Nik is.

To my mind, creating beauty and sharing it in an ugly world is as selfless and courageous as any good deed I can think of.

That is why all of us need to do something to enable him to continue his passion.

Imagine putting so much time, and effort, and dedication into something that feels like a part of you, garnering the courage to put it out on display for the world to see, revealing your inner being, only to get a few shares, and likes on social media, but nothing else. How dismal of a feeling it would be to reveal your soul and no one acknowledge it.

I believe Nik is teetering on the position of many great historical artists that were never truly acknowledged until after they passed. And I want you to help me change that.

Nik, has so much depth, and soul, and if you truly study his work you will see it burning through the images.

I’m not a word thief so let me introduce some things said by others, that I strongly feel applies to my beautiful friend Nik:





Nik, isn’t asking out of laziness, he’s not asking for pity, he’s stepping out of his comfort zone to ask for what I believe he truly deserves: Help.

This is your chance to directly be a part in changing someone’s life. Right here:

If you are unable to help by pledging even as little as $1 a month, there are other ways to support his work. Follow him on Facebook here:

Comment, like and share his posts. He posts updates, blogposts, and his work. The more you engage with his page the higher it rises to the top of his followers feeds.

Share this blog post.

Read his blog posts, he is so honest, it will disarm you. Share them, spread the word. Let yourself fall in love with this diamond of a human being and the beauty he is putting into the world. Tell your friends how much you are rooting for him, and ask for their help. Every little thing anyone can do, will accumulate into something big.

Did that not compel you? If not watch THIS, and then reevaluate who is deserving and why anyone wouldn’t want more of this poured into this too often dismal existence. He’s giving us beauty, and he’s doing it for free, and the hard reality of this all, is that at some point, he needs to pay his bills, and rent, and buy groceries. He’s going to have to get a job, and it’s going to suck so much of his soul out of him; that he won’t have anything left but the memories of peace he once had when he was able to create those rich tapestries of pure contentment through digital and traditional painting.

He will no longer be able to contribute awe, and beauty into the world, because life is consuming. Especially for someone living with autism in a neorotypical world. You may be able to balance and nimbly jump from couch to end table and avoid the hot lava, but for Nik, it’s different, dealing with the lava depletes him. And at the end of the day, it truly comes down to this: finding sponsorship or enough patrons to live by his passion, or barely surviving in an existence of misery, just to buy some bread, and keep the lights on.

That’s injustice, that’s the dot on a canvas selling for Two Million Dollars because of a signature, because someone knew the right people, because someone had a rich daddy, because someone swindled people into wanting to be apart of something that nobody should be apart of, just to be able to say “I know that signature.” While my friend Nik, stays up at night, honing endlessly, perfecting, fighting for any chance to keep the only thing that makes his life worth living. For nothing, for no recognition, no money, lost of hope, lost of happiness.

I love Nik Sebastian, he’s raw, straight forward, honest, and a breath of fresh air, and I think if you give him a chance you will love him too. Don’t fool yourself: Love is the only reason to live, and the only reason life has any joy. Let yourself fall in love and do everything you can to help me lift him up, I promise, it will lift you up in the process.

~ Davs

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National Treasure

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Some may recognize this man as a comedian, writer, actor, director. But many are unaware that hiding behind these many hats lies a simple man.  Simple like the purest drop of water. That simplicity manifests, multiplies, and moves us all, by way of his mere existence. I think we can all agree that  it’s totes obvi why Michael Ian Black is truly a National Treasure.

Michael Ian Black | DavsArt

Michael Ian Black | DavsArt

Michael Ian Black | DavsArt

Michael Ian Black | DavsArt

Michael Ian Black | DavsArt



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Art Fun

Art Fun | DavsArt

I got a new app called iColorama, this in combination with a few other apps, Superimpose and Procreate to name a few, and I’m having so much fun creating new art.

Art Fun | DavsArt

Art Fun | DavsArt

Art Fun | DavsArt

Art Fun | DavsArt

Images available via Davs on Etsy.

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Artist Dribble

Artist Dribble | DavsArt

Sometimes when I’m painting or making digital art I stare at the picture for so long  that I feel like I lose touch with how it really looks. It’s like saying a word over and over until it doesn’t make sense. The eternal question to my mind is, do you see what I see?